Aside: define good without implying bad

define good without implying bad

If the mere sole highlight of your day is one thing then that doesn’t necessarily mean that thing is “great” it could just mean everything else in your life fucking sucks

lighting up every night always feels good but feels better when you hate everything you do leading up to that toke

kissing her every night always feels good but feels better when you hate every other person including yourself leading up to that kiss

dreaming of a better tomorrow self and life every night always feels good but feels better when you hate every second and inch of your body leading up to that dream

if you spend all your energy digging yourself a shitty hole so you can sit on your shitty soapbox to play your even shittier tiny violin and shittiest saddest song ever

then of course anything that triggers excessive dopamine like a drug or an intimate lover would make you feel unreasonably ecstatic

the catch though

is asking yourself is that because they’re so good to my life?

or is it because

I’m so bad to it?